1 Minute of Happiness

Laughter is the best medicine. Nothing beats the laughter of a cute little baby. It's the best gift of all.

Trip to the ER

I know this blog is meant for nice things, but I have to share some not so nice experiences with you. We went away for our little vacation, and everything went well, until Kiana started throwing up when she woke up from her nap. I did not know what was wrong with her. It was normal to have a couple spit outs but after awhile, it seems not normal. So I called the tele-health.

He told me to go to the ER right away, not knowing what was wrong with her. I did as told, went to the ER ( got lost on the way because I am not good at directions around here), luckily they let us in right away. Seems like baby is the first priority, normally you'll have to wait for a couple hours! Anyway all that took about 1 hour, imagine how bad if you have to wait for a longer period.

The doctor checked and said she is fine. Told him she is not fine, she was vomiting and she is not as active. He said she is fine, because her eyes are opened and she is smiling. She smiles all the time! She was looking very tired before, and I really didn't know what to do. The lady that was waiting with her sick daughter was admitted right away, the daughter had 103 temperature. I guess I m a bit luckier than her.

Anyway, we got sent home. I asked the doctor what went wrong, he said it must be just a stomach viral. It might be in the air, might be in the water, we went to the water park for our little vacation. Was planning to go back but seeing how sick she was, hubby didn't take Noah back there. It was a nice little vacation, well not this part, but she seems to be back to normal now. It could have been worse. It's a new experience for me, as they have not been so sick before, and I've learned that the tele-health person will always ask you to go to ER all the time, if you call.. so maybe next time I won't call anymore, they are not much of a help anyway.

And so I went back home, got lots again on the way home. I really don't like driving when it's so dark, especially I am not familiar with the places here. Will try not to let them get sick anymore. It's nothing fun, or nice.

I am not sure what is so funny...

Just as I was feeling a little low, my kids started to fill the house with laughter. This is just what I needed to move on. Life, what is life? Why is mine so boring? I have to force myself out from bed every morning, after having sleepless nights day after day, yes I still nurse her every 3 hours. I have to get both of them ready by 8 am, try to get to school by 830 am, every morning, and no I do not get to sleep in on the weekends, only at 830 am, the latest. I used to be able to get all my beauty sleep I want.

I feel ugly and stupid. Felt that my life is nothing, I'm just here to feed, clean, and clean again, it's just never ending...and hubby always complain the house being messy, made me feel like I am not doing a good job, I don't think he realize it but I am trying to do the best I can, considering I really hate cleaning! 

I feel like I have no time for myself, no time for anything, everything is for them, but I rather do everything for them than myself. This is so different from when I have no kids. We get to do anything, go anywhere, and now, everything it's about them. I feel trapped.

Just when I was thinking all this, suddenly they started to laugh. I do not know what they were trying to do, perhaps they knew I was feeling a little down, and tried to cheer me up by doing silly things. What is better than the laughter of your children? Suddenly I feel like maybe this is all worth it. Just to hear your children laugh, and being happy. As hubby said, this will not last, after many years you'll look back and miss all this fun. So don't miss the fun, be a part of it, enjoy this process of life!

2 is a lot

Oh my, being with my 2 kids all by myself is surely not an easy task. Hubby's gone for 4 days for work, and as much as I love my kids, I can't stand too much of them. I've decided to take the next cake decorating course, just to get away from the house for a couple hours. Unfortunately the Saturday course's not until November!

It's sure the hardest things to do, getting them ready for school, skating lessons, so and so... I don't know how single parent do it ( I mean those good responsible ones, not the ones who neglect the kids ) Time to go, just a short note today. Hope things gets better!

Chairs for sale anyone?

I posted a bunch of pictures on Kijiji and tried to sell the baby stuff away. I just wanted to get rid of them anyway. I've got at least 4 emails asking about the bumbo that I was selling, and it got sold this morning, so fast. I asked for $20 but the lady came with $30.. usually people will bargain for stuff but this is the first time somebody actually trying to give me more. Anyway I returned the $10 for her, and asked her if she wanted more items, I had the highchair for $10 but I told her she could have it for $5, even though she was going to give me the $10.. and gave her a bassinet and another chair for free.... my real intention was just to get rid of stuff but I do not want to post it free because I might get too many calls from strange people.

I am very careful not to give away my add or phone, you'll never know what kinda people might show up right. I still have a lot of baby stuff I need to get rid of, and the toys in my garage. It's too much trouble to have a garage sales, and I don't think we have enough items anyway, don't really want to sell out junks like what other people usually does. 

Well it was a good experience, first time selling things on Kijiji and I made myself a new friend. Turned out she lives nearby and have a son and a baby girl, just like I do. The only difference is I am fortunate enough to have all those hands me down from my sister in law so I do not need to buy anything, we have way too much stuff. I am planning to save up all those money and give it back to her...It's fair to give her back something, because we already used all those items for free~

Kiana's starting to eat more food. She was eating the baby puffs today..and she really likes it. I also made chicken congee for her, and i use the soup to mix it in with blended carrots. She seems to enjoy that. It reminded me of the last time when I was trying different food with Noah...Now he is a big big boy, a picky one too... it's time to experiment with Kiana. 

Noah's going to work

Here is the story. Noah pulled a stool and put beside the table, to the middle of his room. I was wondering what or why he was doing that, so I asked. And here's his replies.

Noah : I'm going to work. Have to make more money, just like daddy.

And he was sitting there, pretending he's working.

I wonder where he got the idea from, and what made him thinks that's how daddy work.... it's just funny how/ what the kids can do. 

Noah's on ICE!

Yes, it was Noah's first skating lesson. I can't believe my big boy is learning to skate, while mommy still can't skate at all yet. Well he did not really skate during his first lesson, it would have been a dream come true if my little boy can just skate beautifully like a pro...

Realistically it didn't happen that way. He just cried his lung out throughout the lesson! It wouldn't be that bad if it wasn't because of that little boy that was in front of him crying out so loudly, and that freaked him out after seeing that other boy cries.

Anyway he didn't miss too much out, as you can see, most of the other kids are just crawling around like babies. Mine is just a lot smaller than the other babies. We'll just have to try again next week, hopefully he won't cry again.... and maybe.. just maybe he can start standing up.. walking... and finally skate!

 Just need one step at a time, so he can play hockey..that's what he has been telling everybody, he wants to play hockey...Mommy's proud of her little boy who is not even 3 years old yet.. perhaps he'll be a NHL player in the future, well he is already NHL.. that's his name.

My Angels

Wow, I couldn't believe it has been 9 months since my last post! I know.. I am slacking here but I have my every reason. I have been busy of course. I'm now a mother of 2, Noah is going to be 3 soon, and Kiana's almost 7 months old. I've been told that we have a millionaire family... or something like that. Everybody seems to be envious of my life. Well, here's my story.

Kiana did not born premature as her brother did. She was actually born on Valentine's Day. What a beautiful day to be born. She did look a little mad when she was a newborn but she is now a very happy baby. It wasn't easy to push her out as she was huge!

 Fortunately Noah gets along very well with his baby sister. That's the big question everybody been asking anyway. He is very helpful and loves to play with her, ALL the time. Just have to watch them because he doesn't know how to be very gentle, yet.

 Everybody keeps telling me how lucky I am and I should make more kids, I've given all the baby clothes away, I know it's early to give them away but I need to make more space and declutter. Kiana is so lucky to receive so many gifts from everybody that I do not need to use any of Noah's clothes.

 I am so glad that I have a beautiful daughter and son now. They do keep my days busy, very busy. I love dressing her up, as you can see in the pictures. It's so much fun. And she is such a happy baby, so content playing by herself. It's such a big difference from my big boy, who still seeks attention all the time now.

Kiana started eating since she was 4 months old. She loves to eat. I think she wants to grow up as fast as possible so she can join her big brother. She loves to put anything in her mouth.

 I'm now into baking cakes. I've took a short 4 days course to learn how decorate the cake. Made this banana cake for her 6 months old. I will share more recipes in the future.

 Kiana loves music.She can pull herself up to sitting position since 2 weeks ago, and started rolling since 3 months old! She is also going to be a model, as what the doctor jokingly said, because she is tall.

 Noah loves playing with his sister. Noah loves doing anything with his sister. He loves sharing his food with his sister too, and I have to watch what he shares. Noah goes to school now, that explain why I am blogging again. He's going 3 times a week this month and more next month. I'm going to have more time to do things that I wanted to do, or just spend more time with my little princess.

I take Kiana to the Early Years Centre or to the park after sending Noah to school. She loves going out so much, we have to enjoy the nice weather before winter comes. Well, that's about what happened for the past 9 months, been busy with my new life, my 2 beautiful angels, and guests that came and visit now and then.

More updates in the future!

Baby #2

I've been pretty busy lately, and having a lot of mood swings. I just get so moody and get annoyed so easily. Hubby's away for work again and being home alone with the naughty boy doesn't help much. I am just exhausted. I know it will be worse when this other one is born. We went for the ultrasound 2 weeks ago. Thank god it was a healthy baby.

This is my little baby's foot. The technician asked us if I wanted to find out the gender, or should we wait for hubby to come in to find out together, I said it will only be fair if we find out the same time. Unfortunately, the baby is very stubborn, she/he wouldn't change position. We tried emptying the bladder, walking around, turning left and right, and after 45 minutes, still won't move. Whenever I move, the baby move with me, the spinal facing up.

In the end, we did not get to find out the gender. The legs were very tightly crossed.. but he/she was playing with the toes, this is a picture of he/she grabbing the toes... Poor thing, it must be the only entertainment inside mommy's little tummy, but isn't it amazing how they can do so much even when they are so little?

The #1 was moving too much that the technician had a hard time taking a picture, and this time, he/she hardly moved at all, too comfy in that position. I got a feeling it's gonna be a girl, I might be wrong though. Most mommy told me how they can't find out their lil girl's gender and having the same problem, with the crossed legs.. well, keep my finger crossed. The doctor's sending me back for another ultrasound in 6-7 weeks~ Maybe we'll be able to find out then, or not.

The first meeting

Today was a very special day. I met my #2 today. She looks like a he but I think she is a she. She's a lay back, relax kind of baby. The ultrasound didn't take longer than 15 mins. She was very cooperative, unlike Noah. Noah was moving all around my tummy, making it hard for the lady to get his measurements, he is still the same now. That's why I think this baby is going to be a good relaxing baby. She was just laying there, not moving much, well just a little bit when we were almost done, she was kinda waving her hands, just like what Noah used to do.

The most important part is, she doesn't has a flat nose like I do. I can see the nose. Hubby said he noticed too, because he said I worry too much about the flat nose.. haha. If she is not a she, he'll be a nice quiet baby ( I hope). One active baby is more than enough. It will be nice to get one that let me rest.

She is totally different. We can see all the parts of the body very clearly. Just about 13 weeks old and she has all parts of the body, with the heart beating so quickly, the little fingers wiggling... She/he is perfect... (I hope so) As long as she/he is healthy, she/he is my little perfect baby, doesn't matter about the flat nose. Doesn't matter if she is a he. She or he will be mine.. my darling #2

Marineland

We went to Marineland yesterday. I've been taking Noah there 3 times a week sometimes. He really likes it there, and I don't know where else to take him because his favourite now is "outside", anywhere but inside.

We went to watch the whale. I was told that you will get wet, but I didn't know that you get really wet! I was not very close to the water and yet I got soaking wet. The picture was the first splash, it was worse the second time. I was at the far back, just put Noah in his stroller and ready to leave, and then comes the grande finale with the big splash, and the whole stroller got hit pretty bad. It wasn't that bad actually because it was such a hot day, we got dried off soon enough.
This is Noah's favourite ride. He just barely reached the minimum height. He really loves going to all the rides, sometimes he cries when I tried to put him back in the stroller, he wanted to go back again. He's such an adventurous boy. Just 18 months old and went for uncountable roller coasters rides already, my nephew is 6 and he is afraid to go on the rides!

July 15th

I've got cravings, lots of them. I wanted to eat nuggets...and then cake...and then cherries.. and it never ends. I had my nuggets.. and luncheon ham with beans. And I had a lot of fruits, cold fruits makes me feel better. Sour fruits especially.

I've been taking it easy. I do not chase him as much anymore, just let him free. If I do not chase him, he will not run as far. So I might as well just sit and wait for him to come back. It has been so hot lately. I've been hybernating in the basement, it's so much cooler there. I moved all his toys, and clean the room, now's it's almost like heaven for me. If only hubby can fix it a bit better, maybe with a fresh coat of paint, and new carpeting, it will be perfect.. and not forgetting a new bathroom too, I need to pee all the time.

We went to visit little Ryan 2 days ago. He's so tiny. I almost forgot how tiny they were when they are newborn. Noah didn't seem to be jealous at all, but I am not sure how it will be with the new one in a couple months.. maybe 7.

I've been thinking again, if it's gonna be a girl or boy. How strange my neighbour told me that I must wanted a boy because that's what all Asian wants, they always want boys. Some even told me your in laws must be so happy to got a boy the first time. They are quite sexist I think. Well, at least I am very sure they do not know me and my family well enough. I've gotten a lot of pressure to get a girl. Every single person (except Noah) in the family wants a girl.

I started imagine a little girl with bang(they call in fringe in m'sia) at the front... and I'll have matching hairstyle, and dresses.. how cute. I'll even let her use my C bags.. I always wanted a sister to share my stuff with.. Well, I've been giving away most of my C bags to my family, now I do not really have that many left...and another good news, I haven't been tempted to buy anything anymore, although I still like shopping..

In fact I just got my new passport, and I told hubby to celebrate, I want to go cross the border, shopping!

July 12th,2011

Omg, omg, I do not want to get pregnant again, ever! This is not going to be an easy one. I remembered it was way lot better the last time. At least I didn't have back pain ALL the time, and feel nausea every seconds.. or breathless.. or have those stupid chest pains.

Or maybe I just think it is different, because I want it to be a different one this time? Whatever it is, I am not enjoying it. I was cleaning the basement, and I got so dizzy. I took him outside, and I had to lay on the grass because my whole body was aching.. and I can't catch up to him.. I am such a disaster.

I am also craving for foods all the time, and when I finally get them, I either can't eat much or it doesn't taste as good as I remembered. I wanted cake when I saw somebody eating cake on TV. I wanted cheezie junk food, but it didn't taste like the one I like actually it made me feel worse. And my last craving is nuggets. I really need nuggets. I have to get it tomorrow.

Noah has been..very loving. He has been going to the neighbour's house everyday, just walk into the house like it's his home, and climb onto the couch and start getting comfy. And then give the granddaughter (she's 8) a big hug and kisses... and start flirting with her. They start young don't they? He is into hugging and kissing lately.. sometimes my whole face gets so wet.. from his wet kisses and sometimes he is trying to kiss me in the lips! It's sure ackward, but he must be copying whatever he was observing.

He's still a quite handful, I hope this other one will be easier but so far, it hasn't been easy.. and I still do not get any help from anybody. I hope I have somebody at least to help me watch him. I am just so tired...all the time.

Baby's Journal

While I secretly wish that it's going to be a girl this time, I kept telling people, it doesn't matter. I even jokingly told them than it's going to be twin boys, just like in the novel "Something Blue" Darcy wanted a girl so bad, in the end she got twin boys instead.

I dare not have any hopes on anything, because I do not want to get disappointed. So what if it's another boy, even when I really want a girl? Even when I want to dress her up like a doll, tie her hair, braid the hair.. I know that I'm always not as lucky and do not always get what I wish for, so I better not wish for a girl this time.

I browsed through the baby gender websites, and usually it doesn't work. I hit on the button and it told me it's a girl, but it was a girl for Noah too, so it's definitely wrong, but Noah was a special baby, he was born early, so I am not sure if it will change anything.

I feel so so so sick. It's not easy when you have a 18 months old ( going to be 19 mths soon) running around, and you have to watch and catch him all the time. I got pretty stressed, and I almost didn't want the pregnancy. It's tough. I had a meltdown when I told hubby I am so tired, and he asked me to go to the gym. He doesn't understand! I wonder if any guys does understand.

While all I needed was to lie down on my back and get a little rest, he asked me to go work out. He said I will feel better. No, I won't feel better, I'll only feel worse. Enough chasing the little toddler around the backyard, and front yard..everywhere I mean, when I needed a rest, he asked me to do more workout? He definitely do not understand that a pregnant woman needs her rest! Not more work!

Anyway I think he got my message and he had the little boy for the weekend while I just sat back and relaxed, and had my day off (from Noah). I still had to clean and cook but at least it's a nice break for me. I think I am getting too much of Noah sometimes. I wonder if it will get worse, still have 7 more months to go and I'm getting all stressed and tired, and my back hurts all the time..

Only 7 more months to go...

May 1st 2011, Community Day @ Niagara Parks

What a day! It was Noah's first vacation. It's a $5 admission fees for all Niagara Parks today, something about community day. We started the day by going to the Journey behind the falls, but I uploaded those picture first, so it will show up in the end on this page. Yeah I screw it up again, but I'm tired.

We saw plenty of butterlies flying around. It was everywhere, Noah thought the butterfly will hit his head, he kep putting his hands on the head to protect it, how funny.

Noah tried to catch some butterflies, he was pointing at them in the picture above.

Strange looking butterflies.

I didn't know butterflies like oranges. They must be really good oranges.

The view from the top, at the Casino.

Noah tried to climb up to have a better view at the falls. He actually walked all the way along the side walk to the Casino.

It was a fun day for Noah. He's so lucky to go to Niagara Falls for his first vacation / stay-cation. Well, everybody is happy.. and tired.

Today

It has been 5 days since I agreed to cancel the transaction, and I've never get a reply from her ever since. I am wondering if she sent it back to me, or just disappeared? Strange people. Should have at least left me a note so I know what was going on. No more ebays, a woman was sued for selling C bags on ebay. Hubby was telling me not to sell it, but then I am not a real seller, it was just for fun ( but its not fun) and the woman who got sues probably sold a hundred, she used to work at the C store.

Today I heard another friend's getting married, C. A is pregnant, B is getting married, and so is C. I am so happy for all of them. I wonder who will be D.

Noah was not behaving today. We went to the mall to get a mouse for my laptop, but he wouldn't sit in his stroller. I had to carry him and push the stroller! We left soon after because I can't tolerate that behaviour. I guess he is growing up, stubbornly. I better get some nap before he wakes up..ZzZzz tired.

Noah's update

OMG Noah's finally sleeping through the night!!
after 13 months!!! Hubby is still waking up at night because he is not used to sleeping thru the night anymore.. and he said i slept like a log.

Noah took his first step yesterday. He can walk and stand but he is afraid to do it. It was Chinese New Year last Thurday and we took him tothe restaurant. It's kinda hard to put update because I haven't write for so long!

I have my reason, I only can do anything when he is sleeping. He wont let me use the computer, or do anything at all. He's my 22 lbs anchor... stuck to me all the time.. sigh..

I really hope he can walk soon, so I do not need to carry him around all the time... and he's almost weaned off... only once a day now.. phewww... it's finally almost over..

A messy day

Noah loves climbing the stairs. He can be so whiney but as soon as I open the gate for him to climb the stairs, he'll give me that naughty/sneaky look. He climbs up right away.. sometimes bringing his blankie with him.
It's a total mess today. He was just out of my sight for a couple seconds, and then he was right there with toilet papers everywhere... He had the vaseline everywhere too... it was such a big mess I do not know where to start cleaning, so I just left it there for hubby to see.

Some days I just feel so lazy, why not just mess it up and have a good laugh at it after, that's what I learned from Noah. He seemed to have a good time anyway.

Noah's First Bite

I haven't been writing lately. It wasn't really because I was busy. Well I was busy sometimes, but most of the times I just don't feel like writing. You know when you have this, ME time that you want to not do anything and just be by yourself.

I got bitten by Noah today. He's got 3 teeth now, and forth one halfway. This little guy sure has some big attitude. The picture is quite faint, but it's there. I was feeding him and lately he likes to grab the spoon and feed himself. I tried to get it back and I got bitten!It was painful at that time, and shocking too. What a lil' brat!

Noah's walking with his walker, and he will try to walk on anything that moves. He will grab your pants and try to walk. He will hold on to anything to stand. He jsut won't stop moving. Sometimes I don't know to laugh or get mad at him... he is just so silly... and his latest favourite toy? POTATO!

I'll have to post some pictures next time. Daddy got a bag of potatoes, and he has been playing with his 'toys'. I always find his 'toys' in unexpected places, in my bag, in the shoes, in his dirty laundry, behind the radio, just about anywhere he can reach. He is surely keeping mommy busy!

A Beesy Day

Tuning up with the radio
Playing with my toys

Buzzing around in the kitchen

Looking for trouble

Trying to flee out

Oh no.. I'm trapped in this house.. kekeke