Tuesday, October 27, 2009

A new shot and a sore shoulder

So we went to the clinic to get the shots, waited for over an hour, and waited another 15 mins after shots. It only took us 2 hours altogether since we left home and got home again. Everything went well, except now that I have a sore shoulder. I m suppose to be sleeping on my left side but it's so sore I had to sleep on my right and it was so uncomfortable last night. At least I know the baby and I will be safe for now.. there's just too many people getting sick lately.

Monday, October 26, 2009

To go, or not to go?

Lately there has been many contraversion of getting the H1N1 flu shots. Some people are worried about the side effects, while some are unsure which ones to get. In my case, I m confused by the 2 types of swine flu shots. They have one specially for pregnant woman, which is going to be released on 9th November 2009, and the other one today. I tried calling the doctor's office but as expected, they do not know much. Anyway, I found a website that provides clearer information, so I am going for it.

Pregnant woman over 20 weeks is suppose to get it first, because they are in higher risk and it takes 10-14 days for it to work. I guess I will not be going to the Halloween party after all. Better stay at home and rest. Health is more important than having fun, especially it's just another 13 more weeks to go~

Saturday, October 17, 2009

I hate getting sick

I lost my voice.

I tried so hard to not get sick, but there's always some inconsiderate sick people talking right into my face, sometimes coughing right in front of me. Don't they know they are not suppose to do that to anybody, let alone a pregnant woman?

I tried and tried not to get sick. I tried to eat healthy food, tried avoiding sick people.. and yet, I failed. I m sick. I lost my voice completely. The day I had sorethroat I went to the doctor immediately. I was told that they do not accept patient who just got sick, they need to be over 4 days sick before the doctor can check on them. Fortunately I'm pregnant so I can go visit the doctor,and because of the H1N1, they give priviledge for pregnant women. The doctor checked my throat and took a sample, I guess I m just having sorethroat or I'd have been quarrantined by now. The doctor told me I should be alright by today, but I guess she is wrong.

I hate getting sick. I hate those phlegm got stucked in the throat. I m trying very hard not to get sick. I feel like a failure, not be able to stay healthy and protect the unborn. Yet it's the flu season now, seems like everybody's getting sick, and in my case, I feel like I'm not getting cure fast enough. It feels so bad to be so sick. I hate it when the seasons changes and I usually get sick.

I was not given any medication. Unlike in M'sia, we used to get a bunch of medicine whether you are really sick or not. Those doctors just want to charge more by giving more medicine. We only get antibiotic usually, and sometimes tylenol , so far these 2 are the most common medicine available here, nothing for coughing, nothing for sorethroat. I guess the doctor expect you to be alright by yourself without any medication in a couple of days, but in my case, I'm not recovered yet.

I'm just hoping to get better day by day. Trying my best to not get so sick. Poor little baby have to bear it with me. I hate getting sick.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

16 weeks and counting

16 more weeks before baby is born.
People always ask me how do I feel or if I'm excited.
Is it normal that I do not have a particular feeling towards it? Other people seems to be more excited than me for some reason.

I just do not what to be worried about it, yet, until later. Why will I be all worry when I have my last 16 weeks to have my carefree motherless life and you know life will never be the same after the 16 weeks. People start telling me that it's not that bad... and then they continued with stories of having the problems during deliveries... that I do not need to know, yet.

I guess I'm just not all that ready yet. I do not know how to change a diaper, to breast feed or to burp the baby. The baby look so fragile and I do not wish to break anything. Will I be a bad mother? How am I even be able to change the baby clothes or bathe the baby? It all sounds too complicated to me already.

People said motherhood is an instinct for every woman. I guess my time is not here yet, when I'm ready, I will try to do my best, and not break any bones. Scary as it is, I will be able to make it.. All I wish now is to have a healthy baby boy.