Sunday, December 13, 2009

Nobody told me things I have to know and Some told me too much of things I do not want to know

First of all, thank you for reading and over-reacting after reading my blog. I am fine, really. I think most people are more worried and over-reacted when I am perfectly fine.

I m just shocked by the pain that nobody had told me before. Hence, there goes my wish list of having 12 kids... just kidding. I had more pain this morning.. and the day before. I think it must be the thinning of the cervix. It comes and goes, like before but this time it's just more and more.

I've always thought that you only get those pain when you are closer to labor, like, just right before labor, I didn't sign up for the pain 7.5 weeks before my due date. I have this idea of going shopping, or when you are busy doing something, and then there goes your water bag.. but in reality it doesn't work that way. It doesn't happen so easily. I have to endure days.. and maybe weeks of pain before it really happens.. and then there comes the real pain... and happiness that followed.. I hope.

I can't believe people still try to tell me the Do's and Don'ts when I repeatedly tell people stop telling me what to do!(especially it's not practical and ridiculous) I will have to come out with a list of Do's and don'ts for others who tries to tell me how to do stuff..

1. Brush you teeth 3 times a day.. or 5 times a day if you wish. and remember to floss afterwards
2. Pick up your own mess and mind your own business..
3. Remember to wash your hands after you are done in the washroom!
4. Do not litter and pollute the air...
and the list goes on..

See if anyone tries to tell me anything anymore.. i m very sure i will give them my very own list of do's and don'ts

Friday, December 11, 2009

Dear Baby

I don't know where to start but there's always so much to think of when I think of you. Every morning you wake me up with a big kick. You wouldn't stop unless I get up. What a good morning call it is, knowing that you are still there, so alive.

You get 4-5 hiccups a day, sometimes I wonder if there's anything wrong, or are you just learning to swallow the fluid in the bag that protects you all the time. I wonder if you'll still get those hiccups after you are born. I get the twitch from your hiccups all the time. Sometimes I complain, but I know I rather to feel it, than not feeling anything.

You have been a very good baby (so far). I've made a deal with you when you were very tiny. I told you if you are good to me, I will be good to you too. I promise you love and everything else that you need. In return, you did keep your part of the deal. I did not have too much problems throughout the pregnancy. I'm very lucky compared to a lot of other women. I only threw up 8 times, no heartburn, or whatsoever, just some cramps now and then.

It used to be like a needle poking into me, then the little bump coming out of the tummy when you kick.. and now all the rolling and moving from one side to another, shiftings in my tummy. You've changed so much within a couple of months. You are a big boy now, in the cramped little uterus. You move a lot, especially when I asked you if you were sleeping, or when I'm getting ready to go to bed. You have your own way to reassure me that everything is fine..that you are still there with me. I wonder if I'll miss the movements when you are not inside my tummy anymore.

I lost the plug that keep you safe in the tummy on Sunday. I got freaked out and don't know what it was. All I knew it was unusual to lost a clot of blood. I searched everywhere on the internet and we suspected it was the mucous plug, and it was indeed the mucous plug that keep the bag intact.

It shouldn't happen before the 38 weeks, but it did happened. I guess baby is just as impatient as mummy, but it's too soon. I know you are excited to see the world and celebrate Christmas and New Year, or maybe you want to be here when your daddy carry the Olympic torch, but baby, you need to grow bigger. It's not the time yet.

I'm trying to eat more often now, and healthy food, in the hope that baby will get some of those nutrient and grow bigger in a short time. Now mummy is just resting, and waiting for baby to come out healthy, not too tiny, and everybody else is waiting for the arrival of the new baby boy...they all think that you will be a cute baby boy, but all I want is just a normal healthy baby boy, even if you are ugly ( I won't tell you that), you'll be the most beautiful baby because you are my baby boy.

Monday, December 7, 2009

A new me

After having long hair for a couple years, I finally get a chance to cut my hair. I have several reasons for this. First of all, I have this thing.. that I really have to do. I wanted to donate my hair. I want to be able to help somebody who need it more than I do. I was reading the paper one day few years back, and I saw some children donating their hair away. I knew I had to do it, at least once.

The hair suppose to be clean, not permed, not coloured, no damages, and it has to be over 8 inches long. I think it should be able to fit all those condition. I went to cut the hair this morning, and everybody at the hair salon felt sad that I was going to cut it off. I just have to do it. They told me I have nice hair, I hope somebody else will be able to use it now.

The other reason is because of the baby. I don't think I have so much time to take care of my hair, or have long showers anymore.. and of course, baby likes to pull hair. I really don't want to have messy hair when I have the baby, so this is another good option.

Yesterday, I freaked out. There's some discharge when I peed. I called the doctor this morning, and have my appointment tomorrow. So far there's no real contraction yet, I think the baby wants to come out for Christmas, or perhaps he wants to be there to see his daddy carry the flames.. but baby.. it's too early..

Thursday, December 3, 2009

I went shopping..again and again..

I think I am becoming a shopaholic. I tried very hard not to go shopping but I can't resist the temptation. After one whole week of not stepping my feet into the shopping mall... I had to do it, again.

It's hard to not buy anything when everything's on special. I bought 3 sweaters today. The cheapest one was only $5! I have never seen anything as cheap as that. I just had to buy it, and of course, I need more clothes as I m expanding rapidly. I was wearing extra-small, but now I have to get small/medium.

There are sales everywhere, yet people are not spending as crazily as the economy is't as good, or that's what most people thinks. Everybody is holding onto their money tightly for a rainy day. I am waiting for the really good deals on Boxing day but then it might not be as good as everybody thought it will be, and the mall will be swarm by big crowds, I don't think it will be a safe place for me to go then.

I went to the Coach store again. I was planning to sell some off, but then after I checked the postage it was a bit pricey, so I have to cancel the plan. I m just buying things that I like, and I will be using. I exchanged a coin purse for this lovely scarf , as a ribbon to tie around my bag. I bought another one in blue, similar but bigger in size, and I still got some $ back out of it..
I'm so happy I got so many great deals today.. but I m a little tired after a long day at the mall.. and the other mall. I guess I can't move as much as before.. I m simply getting bigger