A bad week for me

I have been feeling very down lately, and NO, I am not pregnant. I had my period ok. I was overtired and got dizzy, almost couldn't make it to the car from Walmart. Luckily hubby was there, imagine how bad it would have been if it was just me and Noah.

I got some rest, and felt better. It was bad combination of not enough sleep, whiney baby, and stress. I have test coming up, on Monday. I lost lots of blood, it's a bad month this time. And I couldn't sleep at night.... and also hubby's gone working again... just me and the baby for now.

Sometimes I just need to be left alone, and rest. Thank you all for your concern, but some people they just don't get it, to NOT bug me. The same person has been inviting me to her home weekly, and she still didn't get it that I do NOT want to go to her house. SIGH. I just needed rest, and to be left alone. I'm just tired.

Anyway, thank you for watching the videos. That is really great, and helpful. I will have to post some pictures of my little prince soon. He is growing up too fast. He can utter a few words, like ball, banana, and his favourite sentence is " where did it go?" and he has to have both hands up when he says it.. he is such a cutie.. he drives me crazy, yet I love him more than so much.

Gotta get some rest while I can..
signing off.

For My Brother, Alex

I was reading about Canada, for my coming test 4th of April, and I thought of my dead brother Alex. Sir John Alexander MacDonald was the first Prime Minister in Canada, was also borned on the same day my brother, on January 11th. The flashback of my brother came back to me last night. I have been avoiding talking about him most of the time. Last night, the memory came back. I remember when I was young, I used to like to pull his pants. I was very naughty. I used to fight with him all the time, and cry when I lost, because I know mom will blame him for bullying me. I was good at faking it. As we grew older, we still fight most of the time. Although we were 6 years apart, yet we still fight all the time. He used to help me with my school homework, although it was very annoying when he said I was stupid. He was always there for me, my chaffeur, driving me around to places when I needed a ride. He was very good in directions, and he knew all the places in KL. He left so suddenly, I never ever had a chance to tell him that I love him or give him a hug. We never say I love you to each other in my family, or do hugs. I know now that although we always fight, I do love him very much and still dream of him most of the time. Those childhood days will not be forgotten, those help I got from him, everything that he did. He used to call me almost everyday after work, to check if I was still hungry, if I needed food. I will never find another brother like him. He his the best brother that I ever had, we shared a lot of secrets and gossip together. I am proud of him to be my brother and I do love him more than I ever know. I hope he is in better place now and I will meet him again someday, somewhere. Thank you for giving me those wonderful memories.

Hey Mr Postman, where is my mail?!

Today I am complaining about bad Malaysian Postal services. Recently I've sent the wristlets home, for my sis in law, my mom and my aunty. It is suppose to be there in 2 weeks time, but 3 weeks has passed and still not there yet. Everybody is getting worried about it, it's not cheap. The wristlets were $100 and it cost $18 to post.

They do have insurance coverage up to $100 but there's a lot of procedures and you have to write to them, give them proof and wait. How am I going to get the proof that my brother never receive the parcel? Ghheee.... I do hope that he gets it soon so I do not have to go thru all those trouble.

This is not the first time that my mail never get delivered. That is why everybody is worried. I sent my atm card back once and it was lost forever. The postmen are well known for not being honest. A lot of things gone missing. I wonder how those kinda people can live their lives. I wish everybody should just do their part, and not be greedy. Taking other's people belonging, or not doing their duty is a crime. I hope they know that a place called hell exist.

Now I think I am just mad. I wonder if I can write to somebody with higher position in the M'sian postal company that can do something about it, but he probably is the same kinda people. Well, nothing that I can do now. Signing off.. goodnight

Unappreciated

Just as I thought winter was over, it snowed again today. Spring started at 7.22pm on Sunday, it was "warmer", but today, the ground was covered with 4 inches of snow. Well, at least there's something good that comes out of it, it will help produce more maple syrup. We went to the maple syrup farm and bought a large bottle of maple syrup, 2 litres. According to the maker, she said it's this kinda crazy weather that helps produce the syrup, well we have something to be grateful for this crazy weather now.

I wasn't very happy yesterday. Remember about the cake? The very nice cake that my friend is selling? While I was trying to help promote her cake, she denied that she wants to sell them! Yesterday at school, we were talking about how good her cake was, and the teacher asked if she is starting to sell them.. and she denied! She was saying something about a lot of work, this and that. Imagine how bad it made me look, like I am lying or something.

I was helping her, trying to get others to try her cake, and get orders for her, and there she goes denying it, how nice! I'm really tired of helping others, especially when you are not appreciated, now it makes me look like I am the one who force her to sell. That's not all it, she thinks it's so much work that she has to charge $40-45 a cake.. well, who's gonna buy a cake for so much money? Now there'll be less work for me to do, I am NOT helping anymore!

The end of winter

Dear Mr Diary,

I am so proud of me. I took my MIL to the C store, found a very nice inexpensive purse, and not buy it. My MIL of course bought it, because it's REALLY NICE and only about $50, looks something like the picture. It's really pretty and it's a nice colour... and it makes nice dinner shoulder bag but I managed to resist my temptation to get it. I just have to do it for the rest of the 10 years.. or maybe sooner.

We had a party for hubby last weekend. I am now very tired. I cooked a lot of food, as usual, but I think my food is not up to par. My friend made a birthday cake for hubby. I encouraged her to sell cakes, because she was looking for a job as a side income, and she bakes very good stuff... good healthy stuff. I was her first customer and the cake was REALLY GOOD. I think she spent a lot of time decorating it. I'm so proud of her, such a good baker, a talented one too.

Noah was having too much fun with the kids. They had a great time, but Noah woke up at 2.30 and cried like crazy. I think he had too much fun, and had nightmares. He's back to normal now, but poor mommy, didn't get much sleep for the whole week. Mommy's gonna get cranky.. off to bed.

Signing off,

tired mom

The End of The Shopaholic Me

I bought a jacket that looked like this last week, except that mine's leather and not so shiny. I haven't got a chance to wear it yet, but I like staring at it. It's a XXXS size! Can you believe XS was still big on me, and the only other size was XXXS. I returned that Python bag and got this jacket instead. I think it's a good exchange, and not it's no C jacket. C will probably cost me more and I do not like their jackets.

I've been thinking for the past couple days, that I really want to get the LV bag after all. I will try to stop buying C. I can do it. This will be my very last bag, a nice good bag to end my bagaholic illness.

Years ago, I do not buy any brand names. I live a simple life. I do not know when I started buying brand names. Perhaps it's the temptation because of the close proximity to the outlet here. I should really STOP being a shopaholic, I have to at least try. I will have to end it in a nice fashion though, what's better than a LV bag right? Yes, I'm gonna do it. If, I pass by the store.. I will get it.. regardless what hubby says.. I'm getting it

Am I Bagaholic?

I didn't sleep much last night. I was looking at the clock, every hour, and the last time before I finally doze off, was 4.22am, and I got up after 7. So how many hours did I manage to sleep? Figure it out..

I might have been too excited about the trip to Hawaii, or shopping (that I secretly wanted to buy a Louis Vuitton bag really bad and can't tell my hubby about it) or worrying about the bag that was returned and has not arrived yet.

Well, at least the worrying part is over. I got the bag back today. It was alright, but I wonder what kinda people fold a $400 bag into 2 and ship it back in a shoe box, she shouldn't have to fold it, the box was big enough to lay it down flat. She must have really hated it. Anyway that problem is over, finally.

We are going to Hawaii, in less than 2 months. I really wanted to go to Hawaii. I've always watched Hawaii in TV, and postcards, that's like the only place that I really want to go and haven't been to. And when hubby asked me where I want to go, of course I said HAWAII!

I was checking about Hawaii and I found out that it's a tax free place! I eyed a LV bag for a long time, and regretted not buying it when I was working, I used to fly to Paris sometimes, and it was really, a lot cheaper there. I really regret that I didn't buy one. Now that I have a chance to go to a tax free place, and get a cheaper LV bag, I am really tempted. I've been browsing through their website for like 20 times, or more.

My friend has this very nice Eva Clutch, you can use is as sling or a clutch, that's the type of bag that I frequently use anyway, and the price is not too bad. I just need to not buy anymore coach bags! I really really wanted this bag but I think hubby will not be happy if he found out, because he doesn't like those kinda people who spends so much on things like that.

Should I go get it? OR regret later on that I did not get it, once again? OR should I keep it a secret from hubby and get it? OR should I tell him or get it? OMG I am thinking too much about bags once again. We might not have time to go shopping anyway, or not around that area where the shop is.. stop thinking about it!

Ohh.. by the way I returned the bag and got myself a very nice down leather jacket instead, to match with my new black bag.. I think it was a better choice, a leather jacket than a bag... Stop thinking.. stop thinking.. go to sleep