Very bad day, so far

Have you ever have a day so bad you felt like doing nothing but crying? This morning, my little boy woke up so early, as usual. He wouldn't co-operate, doesn't want to put on the diaper, or any clothes, took me forever to get him ready. I was all tired by then (not forgetting carrying extra 25 lbs with me)

I made some rice noodles ( cheung fun) from rice flour, my first attempt, first few was alright, but my little boy threw tantrum and ruin my mood, and food of course. The rest of them ended up in the garbage. He threw his food all over the floor, hence more work for me to do after.

All he wants was fruits, mandarin oranges, cantaloupe, blueberries, told him he had enough but enough is not enough for him. I am really exhausted at this point. I made some buns but it didn't rise, not sure what's wrong but my buns so ugly.. sigh...

We went out to the mall, had to get Harry Potter Clue for my nephew, looked everywhere for it, but they do not have it, not even online! My credit card bill came, and it was a big surprise how much I actually spent! OMG, $600 just for groceries? And worse of all, I felt that I was being ripped off, one bill was charged $74++ when it was suppose to be $66, because it was a tax free day, but I still get charged for the tax. And of course very unfortunately, the receipt is gone, in the gabage dump.. I have no proof for it.

Everything just went wrong today, and it's not even noon yet.. I just felt like going back in my bed, cover up and cry.

Sob Sob.

Baby #2

I've been pretty busy lately, and having a lot of mood swings. I just get so moody and get annoyed so easily. Hubby's away for work again and being home alone with the naughty boy doesn't help much. I am just exhausted. I know it will be worse when this other one is born. We went for the ultrasound 2 weeks ago. Thank god it was a healthy baby.

This is my little baby's foot. The technician asked us if I wanted to find out the gender, or should we wait for hubby to come in to find out together, I said it will only be fair if we find out the same time. Unfortunately, the baby is very stubborn, she/he wouldn't change position. We tried emptying the bladder, walking around, turning left and right, and after 45 minutes, still won't move. Whenever I move, the baby move with me, the spinal facing up.

In the end, we did not get to find out the gender. The legs were very tightly crossed.. but he/she was playing with the toes, this is a picture of he/she grabbing the toes... Poor thing, it must be the only entertainment inside mommy's little tummy, but isn't it amazing how they can do so much even when they are so little?

The #1 was moving too much that the technician had a hard time taking a picture, and this time, he/she hardly moved at all, too comfy in that position. I got a feeling it's gonna be a girl, I might be wrong though. Most mommy told me how they can't find out their lil girl's gender and having the same problem, with the crossed legs.. well, keep my finger crossed. The doctor's sending me back for another ultrasound in 6-7 weeks~ Maybe we'll be able to find out then, or not.

Back To School!

Today's the first day of the new school year. I didn't want to drive so I took him to the Literacy centre across the street. It was pretty busy, a lot of people eager to go back to school, mostly mommies and day care providers.

Noah was having fun with his shopping cart and going around shopping... and some younger kids always like to hang around with him, especially those without mommies with them, they were with their provider, and of course I felt that I had to watch them.

They are just over a year old, and basically being left by themselves, while the caregiver chat away with the others, as usual. I really can't stand seeing them putting small items in their mouth, as they can choke, and I kinda brought one over to the caregiver when I called her a couple times, and she ignored me.

The little girl was just about 1 year old, can't talk yet. She had 2 paint brushes, putting one with full of paint into her mouth and eating them. Her hands were full of paints.. and I can't stand watching it, so I took her over to the caregiver, and guess what she said? Ohh.. it's not a big deal, it's not the end of the world!

OMG, how irresponsible? I know she had 5 kids to watch but then can you at least watch the youngest one? I wouldn't want my kids to be eating paint and being ignored and keep eating them until somebody else saw it. Ghheeee... This is the reason I will never send why kids to daycare, I just can't trust them enough, they always show how nice and attentive they are when the parents are around. It is so fake!

Cooking is fun

I was feeling moody the past couple days. I realized that I can just direct my boredom to cooking and cleaning so I won't feel as lonely, just to keep me occupied. So I've been cooking again, and the problem is, I am only one person and Noah can't eat much. Hubby doesn't really eats everything that I make. I had to throw most leftovers out, such a waste. And I like to keep my food fresh. My dad sent me this rendang paste, it's so delicious. It's all ready made, I just need to add chicken in, but I added lemongrass, garlic and ginger just to make it taste even better.

I saw this scallop wrapper with bacon's picture in FB and I had to make it. I didn't eat much, only a couple bites, but Noah was really into it, he's smart, he knows it's expensive stuff, so he asked for more and more... he actually ate the rest of my scallops, it was too fishy for me anyway.

I had to make this radish cake to fry it, it's called kueh kak, a hokkien dish, like fried noodles as the picture shown below, just a different texture and flavour, they are both good.

I tried to make some buns using the sausages because we have 2 packets of it. I got sick of it after eating just 2 pieces, it was good just that I can't eat much of the same thing. It was in the garbage after a couple days.. wasted.

My mom used to make something like this crepe, she called it 'pok chang'. I call it banana crepe or thin pancake, of course she didn't add the banana in but hubby likes the banana flavour.

Tarragon chicken pasta, it's really healthy and tasty. One of Noah's favourite too.

The best buttermilk pancake. Also one of Noah's favourite, but it has to be fresh from the pan or he won't eat it.

My famous ribs, it melts in your mouth.. everybody loves this dish. It's so easy to make and simply delicious. You can check out the recipe from gastronormia.

2011 crop from my garden, soon to be made into jam/ grape jelly...

Potato salad, really wanted it last night, so I had to make it, but only ate a small portion of it, sigh who wants to share it with me? It's actually pretty good.

My cupcakes, without icing and less sugar. I don't like sugary stuff, and also Noah's favourite cupcake.

My chicken rice.. all cooked in the rice cooker..

I'm stuck

I was so upset yesterday. I just re-realize again that how few friends I have over here. How lonely I can get sometimes. I really wanted to go out and do something but what can I do? Where can I go? Who can I hang out with? The answers are nothing, nowhere and no one.

I missed my old life. I missed those days when I can just stay in the hotel room whole day, order room service, and going to the pool when I feel like going to, or scroll around the place when I needed fresh air. Free, totally free.

I really don't know what to do with my life. A lot of people told me how jealous they are of my boring life... it is really that boring. I can't go anywhere, do anything. I feel like I'm being jailed, with a toddler bugging me all the time, and another one following soon. Sigh.. I want a break, I need fresh air.. freedom from my jail.

The first meeting

Today was a very special day. I met my #2 today. She looks like a he but I think she is a she. She's a lay back, relax kind of baby. The ultrasound didn't take longer than 15 mins. She was very cooperative, unlike Noah. Noah was moving all around my tummy, making it hard for the lady to get his measurements, he is still the same now. That's why I think this baby is going to be a good relaxing baby. She was just laying there, not moving much, well just a little bit when we were almost done, she was kinda waving her hands, just like what Noah used to do.

The most important part is, she doesn't has a flat nose like I do. I can see the nose. Hubby said he noticed too, because he said I worry too much about the flat nose.. haha. If she is not a she, he'll be a nice quiet baby ( I hope). One active baby is more than enough. It will be nice to get one that let me rest.

She is totally different. We can see all the parts of the body very clearly. Just about 13 weeks old and she has all parts of the body, with the heart beating so quickly, the little fingers wiggling... She/he is perfect... (I hope so) As long as she/he is healthy, she/he is my little perfect baby, doesn't matter about the flat nose. Doesn't matter if she is a he. She or he will be mine.. my darling #2

Food, more food

As you can see, I've been crazy cooking everyday. This is my favourite, and I've been asked many times for the recipe, so I will post the recipe to Gastronormia when I have the time. IT's really delicious.

Home made macaroni and cheese, healthy and Noah loves it.

Stir fried vege from my garden with egg tofu.

Cripsy fries, just the way I love it.

Tom yam bihun mee

Ceasar salad, from my garden as well...

Taro cake.

Noah ate my icecream!

Bacon wrapped scallop.

Bubur chacha

Mushroom risotto

Chee cheung fun with yamcake

Stir fry kailan (from my garden) with oyster sauce

Ayam Rendang

Kaya jam, Noah's favourite

Char kueh teow mee